There were a lot of crazy people there tonight! I was uncomfortable, I was conflicted, and I thought about my past. I remember being forced to raise my hands, forced to speak in tongues, forced to sing along, and forced to have a relationship with God when I didn’t even know what that meant. I didn’t feel God in that space, I felt memories of my past creeping in although I felt the God I was forced to experience was still in that space.
My reality is I still love God, I still love my personal relationship with him and I still believe in what he’s done for me. What I don’t believe is the idea that I have to worship him a certain way, that he will only love me if I’m raising my hands, or jumping around, or doing everything right. My reality is I can make mistakes and I am still so so loved through God grace. 🙏🏽
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